So, yesterday I took Louie the guinea pig who has been fighting a eye infection and a uri for over a month to the doctor.  Even though he has been on two different antibiotics for over a month the Uri has now become pneumonia and his eyeball has ruptured.   I feel so bad for the little guy.  The doc wants to get him over the pneumonia and then take him to surgery, remove his eyeball and stitch his eyelids shut.  It's called a eye enucleation....  I don't know how much this is going to cost us but, we decided he is still full of life-there is no way we will put him to sleep.  We will figure out a way to come up with the money for the surgery. 

Today, I'm finding even though all kinds of crap financially, emotionally and physically are going on that the future is looking bright.  I've been for the last two months trying to stay positive for the girls so they don't see the worry, has worm off on me and I'm actually thinking positive instead of "acting" positive.

Not much else is going on, just the mundane boring laundry-I hate it!  Pythia sent me the cutest things in the mail...She sent a set of pagan building blocks, a stuffed goddess rattle and some cutesy lil fridge magnets.   I was so impressed with the blocks!  Thank you!

Gonna go shower now...and get some stuff done!

I wake up this morning and check my bank account online as I do every morning just to make sure everthing is ok....you never know with my account...lol....I have some money in there for a specific bill...and I've instructed Chris to not use the debit card for anything untill further notice...anyway, I get online to check it and what do I see?  a $26.24 dollar transaction listed for EBAY which I did not do...I immediately call hubby and I'm sure I sounded quite pissy and asked him if he had bought anything and he told me no, he hasn't bought anything through ebay in several months...Not only that but, when we purchase something through Ebay it usually posts as paypal to the account not just "Ebay".  So, I get on the phone to the bank.  They were very helpful...opened a fraud case, deleted the activity, deleted our debit cards and ordered new ones that won't be here for 7 to 10 days....or I had the option of having the new cards overnighted for an additional fee of 16 dollars...shhhht, yeah right....snail mail for me thanks!  I told the lady from the bank, this was scary for me...to know someone had access to my acct...she informed me it could very well be a mistype when someone was entering their card number blah blah blah...that's even more worriesome because, if I wasn't one of the vigilant who checked my account everyday to see how much funds I don't have, this very well could have gone through and I wouldn't have known about it for a month at least...to know that a simple typo withdrew almost 30 dollars out of my account and I paid for somebody elses crap from ebay....GEEESSSHHH!!!

I've only been working part time lately, only fri/sat/sun...but, I'm not sure how much longer that's going to last...it's getting increasingly harder for me...it's a struggle just for me to get outta bed in the a.m.  I get bursts of sleep not sleep but an hour here and an hour there...I'm up every hour or so switching positions or peeing....and don't even ask me to bend over to pick up that sock...lol...it aint happenin!!!  I get out of breath trying to bend over far enough to get my shoes tied!  Otherwise, everything is going great!!!  still going to the fetal cardiologist every three weeks and after this ob visit on friday I will start going in for every two week check ups instead of once a month...I can't believe it's almost over already....this week marks the start of 8 months!!  I'm so thankful I could carry this little girl to full term....I'm not however looking forward to birth day....Both of the other two girls were born with no drugs whatsoever and that's the way I want it this time...For some reason people feel the need to ask me if I'm going to have an epidural and when I say no, they gasp and say "really"?  sure why not?  The pain is only temporary, I've done it twice already....this won't be any different...I think I would only have one if they told me I had to have a c section....Last week marked the first un invited stranger belly rub....I usually don't mind people I know rubbing it or hugging it but, for some reason strangers that just feel it's ok to reach out and invade my "personal space" bugs me....

How about Layla Grace???? anyone???? 

Tia and Emma are doing good.  Emma is thriving in school, Tia is doing good in school but, her math skills still elude her.  She starts tutoring this week.  Tia also made chorus.  She tried out about two weeks into school and got her acceptance letter.  She was so excited.  She has practice every tuesday after school.  Her chorus teacher told her this Tue that she might just get a solo at their Christmas performance.  She said she didn't want to do it because, she didn't want to stand on stage by herself.  I told her to do it, don't be afraid.  Don't let scared feelings prevent you from doing something.  She said what if people make fun of me?  I told her that if her teacher feels that she deserves a solo then who cares what anyone else says...and told her no one would make fun of her.  Emma got a "bad note" home from school last week for excessive talking...I couldn't help but laugh on the inside because, Chris and I knew that might be a problem for her in school.  She is a talker...has been since birth.  sometimes I think she talks just to hear her own voice...not a minute goes by without emma talking...the only time she is in silence is when she sleeps and most of the time not even then...she talks in her sleep too!  We had a talk with her about interupting class time with talking etc. etc. but, did not punish her at home because, her punishment at school was enough devastation for her, I think she gets the idea that its not ok.  She didn't get to visit the treasure chest that week because of it, and that my friends is her favorite thing.  They earn stars for every good deed they do and at the end of the week if they have 5 stars they get to go in the treasure chest and choose a treasure....

Anyway, I've rattled enough....I'm going to go...I have a kitchen mess to clean and guinea pigs to feed and medicate.....Have I shown you all our newest piggy?  He was a guinea that was sick and was brought into our hospital and the people couldn't afford to treat him so they signed him over to me...He is so handsome, we named him Louie...here is a quick pic

And here is Tinker with the girls

I've heard everyone talking about the new photo uploader but, havn't used it till today...it rocks!

I was going to do a poll but, couldn't figure out a good way to do it....so...........................

I have come up with a few names we like.  We need help...lol

Give me you ideas...If you have any ideas not listed give em to me...

Sage

Skyla

Gracie

Lanie

Trinity

I really like Trinity, I was thinking about using that as a middle name because, as you all know this will be our third girl so it seems fitting.

Just got the girls off to school about 20 minutes ago.  I have found that when I used to be a SAHM there were always things for me to do...always had a craft going, or something to bide my time.  Since I've been working though, even though I have 5 days in a row off, I can't find a thing to do.  It's almost like I've forgotten how to do the things I enjoy.  The kids leave and I find myself (literally) staring at the walls...thinking ok, what do I do next?  I wish we owned our own so that I could have a yard to tinker in...The most gardening or tinkering I get is walking the dogs out in the community yard and looking at the mushrooms that seem to sprout out overnight.  It's amazing how quickly those thing sprout. 

This morning was quite nice, I miss moments like that when I'm in a mad dash trying to get ready to leave for work.  Chris was standing in the kitchen drinking his coffee and we just stood there and chatted for about 10 minutes.  Albeit about paying bills and the mundane stuff but, it was nice to just stand still next to him and talk in a very relaxed atmosphere. 

I talked to Nyanah last night, I don't get to talk to her nearly enough...She got hurt a work a month or so ago and has to have a surgery on her knee so all thoughts I'm sure would be appreciated. 

I just can't wait till the weather straightens out...and really becomes fall.  With all the rain we are getting from the effects of the Hurricanes...makes it about 85 or so with like Melissa said 2000% humidity.  Not much to do but sweat it out lol....

Does anyone know what happened to Jackal?  I've missed him...Havn't seen him post anything in several several months.  I know he moved but, that's it. 

Called my mom yesterday, I feel bad for her.  She apparently hurt her back and was getting ready to go to the doctor to find out what was wrong.  I asked her to call me when she got out of the doc but, didn't get a return call....so, I guess shes fine?  I'll call later on today.  My mother in law had surgery about a month ago..she had a hip replacement.  She says she gets around well with a walker but says it hurts a bit...nothing like before the surgery though.  She is the one who has schizophrenia and bipolar.  She's had a rough go of it over the last few years with the mental illness but said that since her surgery hasn't heard any voices, that's been about 5 weeks now...so hopefully she's getting a relief period with her new medicine.  It's a very difficult disease to understand so, we have had our times-but, I wish nothing but the best. 

Well, I'll go for now....I'm running out of things to say.  Mucho love, J

So sorry, it took so long for me to update from my last blog.....been busy busy!  Well, the cardiologist appt. went well.  The doc said "it" was benign.  Apparently what is happening is that the top two chambers arent giving the bottom two chambers a chance to beat occasionally.  On the Ekg, you can occasionally see two top peaks and then no bottom peak.  The doc said that 95 percent of the time this will clear up with birth.  I still have to go in every three weeks for a check up with the heart doc. just to make sure that the baby is ok, and that the arrythmia dosn't change. 

I tried to put in my two weeks notice at work last week, notice I said tried!  I was talking to my boss and she informed me that I was too valuable an employee for them to loose me.  So we agreed that I would go part time untill I have the baby.  only 20 hours a week.  Which works out ok for me.  I'll have a lot more time with the kids for now, and I'll still be able to bring in at least some money.  Basically, I'll only be working weekends....

This week was hard financially for some reason..I'm not quite sure what happened...but, we had to have my mom in law -money gram up 40 dollars just so we could buy some milk,  bread, cereal and butter....it sux...but, we will make due as always....

I'm due in about 2 months and have nothing for the baby, I'm starting to stress just a lil bit...lol...If we have any extra money this month, I plan on going to some thrift stores and picking up some onsies and stuff.  Hopefully, someone I know will give me a baby shower....I have to tell ya though, it really stinks that I don't have many friends that live close to me...Even if someone had a baby shower for me, there are not many people to invite...I already decided I don't need a crib right away, I want what is called a co-sleeper.  It's basically a baby bed that butts up to the side of my bed and has a strap that goes under my mattress to hold it in place...I figure that will make it easier at first and I can use that till she starts to roll over, that will give us a good 4 months or so to get a regular crib.  I'm still not sure if I'm going to bottle or breast feed her yet.  I tried with both the other girls to nurse and even with a lactation nurse to help me, I just couldn't do it.   So, I suppose I will try again with this babe. 

How are all of you??  I know everyone was having a rough go of it a few weeks ago...Hopefully, everyone is making it through alright. 

Well, not much else going on here...I just spent the day cleaning my house, doing my floors(they severely needed it), doing lots and lots of laundry....

I'm gonna go now...wishing you all lots of love and hugs....If I could I'd hug you all in person.....love, J

We have had non stop rain for about 4 days now...It's supposed to start easing up today but, as I type it is storming....I let the girls walk to the bus stop on their own this morn because, we only have one umbrella and there wasn't enough room for all three of us under it...

Yesterday, I had my 7 month checkup.  Got some news that is disturbing and caused panic.  My midwife was listening to the heartbeat with the doppler and she thought she heard irregularities(sp?), so she had me hooked up to the fetal monitor for 30 minutes.  She came back to check in and still heard it, and saw it on the printout.  She immediately made some calls, informed me I needed to go straight to a maternal fetal doctor in downtown Atlanta.  I freaked, called Chris from work to go with me.  We got there and they did an ultrasound basically to confirm there was a problem.  There is a problem, although the ultrasound tech didn't know exactly what it was.  Something is wrong with my baby's heart.  Chris and I have to go back down to Atlanta on Friday at 2 p.m. to meet with the fetal cardiologist who will do another ultrasound but, more specifically on the baby's heart.  She will analyze each of the chambers of the heart, each of the ventricles(I'm not sure if chambers and ventricles are the same thing) and try to pin point where the problem is and what the problem is.  They told me we will go from there to find out what to do next.  I'm trying to be positive as Chris tells me, but- A HEART problem scares me.... deeply deeply scares me....

On our way home from Atlanta (mind you we don't venture downtown very often)  we were supposed to be going south and somehow ended up in Gwinett which is North East of Atlanta ( we live south west of Atlanta).  The whole time it is pouring down rain and can't see the road, skies so black it looked like night time.  I told Chris it felt like we were going the wrong way when I was seeing signs for Duluth Ga. which is North GA.  He kept saying were not lost...lol.....ok, hunny.  Anyway, we finally got turned back around after an hour of driving.  He said I can't believe I'm such a dumb ass, I told him not to worry about it, he did alot better than I would have...I would have ended up in Florida lol!   

Emma was out of school monday and yesterday sick.   She started puking Friday night, I thought she just had a 24 hour tummy bug but it carried on untill monday night.  I had every intention of sending her to school yesterday because, she didn't puke all day monday or sunday night.  Then on monday night (technically tues morn) at 130 am she woke up sick again.  so, I kept her out tuesday too.  She made it all day yesterday and all night last night without being sick so, she went to school today.  Tia never really got it, she was feeling a little naseaus (sp?) over the weekend but, never got sick. 

I was off mon, tue and today.  mon morn I got a call from my boss asking me was there any particular reason I wasn't at work on mon. morn.  I told her well, because, I was scratched off the schedule for monday and added in on Fri.  She said she knew, she made a mistake that was supposed to be for someone else.  I told her well, I can't come in, I've got both the girls home from school sick today.  She promptly hung up on me.  I was really t'd off, why are you going to call me and ask me if there is any particular reason I'm not there, when you know you made a mistake before you even called me, and then act like it's my fault.  I told her, I would never ever just not show up for work.  Even if I wanted to quit, I would never just not show up.  I know how that feels to be left stranded and have to work twice as hard to make up for someone else....

Oh well, everything is good.  besides bills and money but, hey what's the point in having running water and electricity anyway??  lol....there not cut off but, they could be with a one dollar short paycheck...

I'm gonna go and get some things done around the house today, might be a good day to take a nap-raining like cats and dogs, the house is quiet with both the kids gone.  gonna go-love u all, J